Hey y'all! So I have just decided to start blogging. I really do not know what I am doing and right now I have no fun pictures or anything because I just got my camera in operating condition! But hopefully I will be able to post pictures soon! But any pointers or tips about blogging would be much appreciated! haha Since I have no adventurous photos as of now, I guess my random thoughts will do. I think writing this will be more for my benefit than for anyone else! But hopefully it can in some small way help you out too! If I don't kill you with boredom that is! haha
Mostly I have been thinking about how life throws you curve balls. My life has been taking some crazy turns lately and there are times that I feel like I have been blind-sided by a big Samoan linebacker. Ever feel like that? ha There are some things that I desperately want in life, but I need to be patient. This is one of the hardest things in life for me.. to be patient. I like to plan. I like to do. I do not like to wait and hope things get done as they should. But right now, I feel like all my plans are running thin, slipping away through any random crack they happen to come across. I know that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing right now, but time is passing me by and my future is foggier than well, fog itself. And I hate that.
Right now there are just so many options for me...There is not just a fork in the road, but several different paths, all of which are good, but I am just not sure which one to travel down or even when to begin the journey. Which one is best? You can see why this occupies my mind, right? But the worst is when you there are things you want the most and you just simply cannot have them. You go towards them, but you never reach them. That is where I feel the most toil on myself; these paths that I can see, but there is a sign that says, "Cannot tread upon, indefinitely". And what makes this even worse is when you know you MISSED your chance to go down that path. You saw that it was a path you would love to pursue; a path you would do just about anything to get even the chance to travel on and because of you, you missed it. It was clean and beautiful. It looked promising. And it was open, just waiting for you to come. So, you walk towards it, but as you get closer you start to slow down. You are not sure if this path is as welcoming as you thought. And then when you decide to finally take the chance and run, jump, and skip onto the trail it closes right in front of you. And when you hit that sign that is telling you this path is closed for now and who knows if it will ever be opened again to you, you fell like you were blind-sided. Like you never saw it coming, although there were small signs telling you to act now, yet you brushed them off. Not giving them much thought. Yep, those ones. These are the ones I am talking about. You stand right by them, but in stubbornness you expect the path to come to you, rather than you come to it; as if the path had something to prove to you. I did that. And I feel like I have missed my chance on something that could have been wonderful. And that is what hurts the most. It could have taught me so much and brought so much joy into my life and yet, I failed to take the proper steps to give it a go.
But, I am grateful for the opportunity for growth. To learn. To come closer to my Heavenly Father. And for that I am jubilant! I love love love living by the temple! For whenever things are just too confusing, hard, or I just need some peace I drive to the temple, that is only a few minutes away, and I will sit outside of it for hours. I may go inside the visitor center. And on Thursday nights I am usually inside of the temple. It is sooo amazing for me to have the temple so close! What a blessing! For me, when life throws me another curve ball or a path I wished to travel on closes I turn to family, friends, but also the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I go to His temples and I find peace and joy. I may not always get the answers I am looking for and the answers may not always come right away, but I feel and know of God's love for me and I know everything will be alright. He is an all-knowing God. He wants me to grow. And He, in His perfect love for me, wants what is best for me.
Right now there are just so many options for me...There is not just a fork in the road, but several different paths, all of which are good, but I am just not sure which one to travel down or even when to begin the journey. Which one is best? You can see why this occupies my mind, right? But the worst is when you there are things you want the most and you just simply cannot have them. You go towards them, but you never reach them. That is where I feel the most toil on myself; these paths that I can see, but there is a sign that says, "Cannot tread upon, indefinitely". And what makes this even worse is when you know you MISSED your chance to go down that path. You saw that it was a path you would love to pursue; a path you would do just about anything to get even the chance to travel on and because of you, you missed it. It was clean and beautiful. It looked promising. And it was open, just waiting for you to come. So, you walk towards it, but as you get closer you start to slow down. You are not sure if this path is as welcoming as you thought. And then when you decide to finally take the chance and run, jump, and skip onto the trail it closes right in front of you. And when you hit that sign that is telling you this path is closed for now and who knows if it will ever be opened again to you, you fell like you were blind-sided. Like you never saw it coming, although there were small signs telling you to act now, yet you brushed them off. Not giving them much thought. Yep, those ones. These are the ones I am talking about. You stand right by them, but in stubbornness you expect the path to come to you, rather than you come to it; as if the path had something to prove to you. I did that. And I feel like I have missed my chance on something that could have been wonderful. And that is what hurts the most. It could have taught me so much and brought so much joy into my life and yet, I failed to take the proper steps to give it a go.
But, I am grateful for the opportunity for growth. To learn. To come closer to my Heavenly Father. And for that I am jubilant! I love love love living by the temple! For whenever things are just too confusing, hard, or I just need some peace I drive to the temple, that is only a few minutes away, and I will sit outside of it for hours. I may go inside the visitor center. And on Thursday nights I am usually inside of the temple. It is sooo amazing for me to have the temple so close! What a blessing! For me, when life throws me another curve ball or a path I wished to travel on closes I turn to family, friends, but also the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I go to His temples and I find peace and joy. I may not always get the answers I am looking for and the answers may not always come right away, but I feel and know of God's love for me and I know everything will be alright. He is an all-knowing God. He wants me to grow. And He, in His perfect love for me, wants what is best for me.
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